I know that some of you are reading this and thinking that I should have more important things to worry about than a reality show. I think everything I have going on right now in my life makes it even sadder. Bryant and I have watched the show from the very beginning. It is so sad to watch the destruction of a marriage played out on national television. Tonight's episode was so sad. No matter what people have to say about Kate or Jon...no matter who deserves what or who said this or who did that.....it is still horrible.
I HATE to watch marriages fall apart. Bryant and I have watched several couples, that we have known and loved since we've been together, go down this path and it is so heartbreaking.
Let me say this..
I am not a perfect wife. I have SO much to learn. I know that being married a little less than six years doesn't make me qualified to write a book on marriage. I do know this though. I chose to love my husband. I chose to make a commitment to him before God. I didn't choose a feeling or an emotion. I didn't choose certain circumstances and situations. I chose him.
I am very realistic when it comes to marriage. It's hard. It can feel like a job at times to keep it working and healthy. Trust me - adding a child dying to the mix doesn't help at all.
Security is an amazing gift that Bryant and I have been able to
give each other with the Lord's grace and guidance.
give each other with the Lord's grace and guidance.
This week is shaping up to be a hard week. I have a lot of "normal" things that I have to do. It's hard to get back to life. I do not look forward to leaving the house. I'm always paranoid that I'm going to run into someone that knew I was pregnant and doesn't know what has happened to Nate. I can't imagine how hard it is going to be to explain this situation out in public. I'm also always nervous about what my emotions are going to do. I drove by Brick Oven Pizza and saw a daddy outside holding a newborn baby. I felt like I have been slapped in the face. It's hard. It's hard to watch life move on. Bryant and I will never move on from Nate. I'll never forget him. I do know that life has to move forward. That scares me. I know the Lord has a "new" plan for us.
"Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name; you are mine."
Isaiah 43:1
I have summoned you by name; you are mine."
Isaiah 43:1
I am so thankful to hear your passion to keep marriages intact and your desire to keep your covenant in Christ's strength. I too, am of that remnant. As you "move forward" consider Phil 4:8. I pray with you for marriages to be upheld. It is good for all of us wives to focus on our service to Christ and through that our service to our husbands.
ReplyDeleteMisty
I'm sad about Jon & Kate too! God has given them an amazing life and 8 beautiful children. It makes me sad to see people get consumed with selfish ambitions and lose focus on the eternal gifts. Still prayin' that they can find their way back.
ReplyDeleteOn the "normal" note...that's always hard. I was paranoid about leaving the safety of my house too. The walls of protection are down once you open the door. But, each time you venture out you will gain strength and confidence. Eventually, it will get easier.
I wish more people felt that way about their marriages. Last night's episode made me sad too, and I hope they figure out some way to make it work.
ReplyDeleteI still think about you and Bryant everyday and pray for continued healing. Hope you guys have a great afternoon!