Nothing puts me in a worse mood than dealing with the insurance company. (I am very sorry if any of you out there reading this work for an insurance company) I just found out what it's going to cost for me to have these tests done next week. Not to mention what we still owe the hospital for my 11 days there. I'm rundown. I'm stressed. I need to find a job. I don't even feel like that is a possibility at the moment but I know I need too. I have something in the works to start in August but June and July are going to be very long months.
This was our year to be debt free (other than our house...that's a goal but not this year). That will not be the case at all now. I have more than doubled our debt in one month with all of my medical bills. Not to mention the fact the most 24 and 25 years old don't have money put back to have a funeral for their dead child (especially in this crazy expensive town). I'm stressed and afraid. I look at our almost none existent savings account and think...what are we going to do if something else happens.
I'm sure my husband is going to die if he reads this post. He does not talk about money with other people. He is completely old school in that area. He likes people to think we have it together..(not in a "keeping up with the Jones' kind of way..just in a "some things aren't other peoples business kind of way). So, if this post gets deleted you will know why.
People keep asking us what they need to pray for. Pray that we will not let fear and stress consume our lives. I don't want to live life like that. I pray each day that the Lord will strengthen my faith in Him. That He will really help me learn how to come to Him with all of my pain and stress and hurt and fear and lay it at His feet.
I have one thousand and one things that I have to get done today. I really need to have a productive day.
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