Bide My Time - a band we love

One of our favorite people in the world is following his dream along with his other bandmates. I am so happy when I see other people doing what they love! 


I would love for you to find out more about Bide My Time and the journey that they are own to get their music recorded! 


Bryant and I are so proud of you J! Don't forget us when you make it to the "big time"!

 

Sister Woman

Sister Woman update - We will be finding out what the new addition to our family is in 6 days!

Bryant and I are definitely thinking it's a boy. Everyone really just wants a perfect, healthy little baby that will stay inside of her for at least 16 or 17 more weeks. I'm not sure if she will say it but they are definitely hoping for a little girl. It has been so good to have something to look forward too. I will post as soon as we know...maybe we will get new pictures too!

Coffee Alert: Burners must be turned off!

Most of you will not understand the title of this blog post but it brought me a lot of joy this morning ;-) Love you Mrs. L.

I work with some great people...I always leave work with someone to laugh or smile about!
It is a gorgeous day in our lovely little town. This weather puts me in the best mood! Things always seem better when the sky in blue and the sun is shinning. Today is supposed to be "Wordless Wednesday" but I don't have a picture to post =-(
I will try to better next week.

Thanks again for all of your sweet messages/emails/comments.

come what may...

"But if you decide you do want to know His will, there will be moments when you have to let go of the fear of what that might mean - when you have to release your grip of control on your life and decide to be led, 

come what may."    

- Francis Chan from Forgotten God

Come what may.....

That is the part that hit me. It's not giving the Lord control knowing things will go the way I want them to. It's saying take it all, have control of all of it....even when it hurts and it's painful. What does "come what may" look like in my life? How do I trust that no matter what I endure or have to go through in this life that He already knows and is already working it all for my good? It's really hard for me. In the times when I'm so frustrated and confused, I have to remind myself that B and I are still standing. The Lord has never allowed anything to come to us that He hasn't given us the strength and peace to endure. I think we hear that so much that we almost become desensitized to it. I know it always seemed very cliche to me until it became my reality. It wasn't until the desperation of not even knowing how to take another breath, get out of bed, or make it through another hour, happened in my life that all of the things I had been taught about who He was became so true. I am definitely in a moment of my life and at a crosswords where the fear of what might be takes over a lot. I wish I could say that through everything I've experienced I've learned so much but I obviously haven't if fear still wins out most days. I'm afraid of never having a child that I get to hold alive. I'm afraid of what losing another baby will do to who I am. I'm afraid of what it will do to my marriage. I'm afraid of being stuck. It's been so difficult these past two years that some days I'm just simply afraid of what is next. I'm constantly amazed at the faith my husband has. A word I have used to describe him many times is steadfast. (there have been times where that steadfastness had quickly turned into stubbornness!) He is always quick to remind me that God is good in every situation. Not only that, but he has embraced the pain of the past two years with a grace and perseverance that few people would have. I think the past two years I've been in the process of letting go of what I wanted my life to be, even if at times I've almost had to be forced to do so. I'm not sure if that will make sense to anyone but me.

So this is me today.
I've never apologized for being real and I probably won't start anytime soon. This blog has always been about my journey, even when it's not pretty. So thankful that even in the weakest moments..He is strong.

"Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me." 

2 Corinthians 12:9

Happy Valentine's Day

I love you more today than I did yesterday...

(FYI- I will be posting pictures of us at Toomer's Corner all year...we are still enjoying the National Championship win. This picture was taken by my favorite photographer and one of my sweetest friends -  Heather Carson.)

Happy Valentine's Day.

even after all this time...

Even after all of these months, I still get sad..really sad.

We keep a picture of Nate by our bed. It's as "normal" to me as any other picture in our house. Last night I was getting ready for bed and I set something down on the night stand. I looked at his picture and tears just started rolling down my face. I was taken aback by the strong emotional reaction I had to seeing a picture that I've looked at every single day for the past 2 1.2 years. It is almost unsettling to me to know that there is still such a well of sadness in my soul and at times an unbelievably intense longing to know that little boy. Life would be so different for us. Knowing me, I would already be in the planning stages for his two year old birthday party....I try very hard not to let my mind wonder about the what ifs...It's just too hard. I'm pretty sure it's always going to be like this. Life does move forward, the pain subsides and the grief settles...but I know I'll always wonder about who he would have been and the life he would have had if things had turned out differently.